Sometimes, I’m a girly girl.

Okay, a lot of the time, I’m a girly girl, but I guess I just hate a lot of girly girl stereotypes.

But one thing I’ve always loved is fashion. I love clothes. I love shoes. I love bags. I am a total stereotype in that regard.

When I was a teenager, I went through a phase where I was convinced I would be a fashion designer. I made a lot of clothes for myself. Then my soul got a little crushed by the fashion world. (I feel like I don’t even have to go there for you to get what I mean, but also, I’m gonna touch on this next week, so I’ll save it for then.)

So anyway, one of the things I was most excited about when I started to lose weight was the shopping potential. I have literally never (see: never ever) shopped is “straight sized” stores. I basically went from kids’ clothes to plus-sized clothes. Not that there’s anything wrong with plus-sized clothes, but the options are…well, non-existent. Yes, the world of online shopping for fashion-conscious plus-sized ladies has expanded significantly in the last five or so years, but if you want to shop in stores in my hometown, you have like, two options. Boring.

When I started to fit into straight sizes, I had a bit of a meltdown. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to wear. I wasn’t sure what was “me” or not. It was definitely an identity crisis, and it’s still something I struggle with a bit. Maybe I always will.

But today I realized something. (Well, I confirmed it, anyway.)

It’s not just me. It’s also the clothes.

I spent like, three hours walking through a mall today and wandering into every store to look around. Guys, I know this is a generalization, but clothes kind of suck.


Here’s the thing: when you’re walking through a mall:

(A) It’s basically like you’re walking into the same store over and over again, because everything looks exactly the same. (Like, right now, it’s all see-through flowy blouses, short shorts, and weird over-sized t-shirts.)

(B) The clothes are either over-priced, or super cheap, but either way, they are TERRIBLY made. I get that I am biased because my grandmother was a seamstress/tailor/clothing designer, so I grew up learning about how to make clothes and what makes clothing well-made, but come on. If it’s got a hole in it or it’s falling apart before you take it home, it shouldn’t cost $50. It shouldn’t even cost $30. That’s ridiculous.

Now, before you jump down my throat and tell me to go to XYZ store, or get my clothes made by a tailor so that they fit me perfectly, let’s all take a minute and acknowledge that that is so much easier said than done. I mean first of all, it’s expensive, and I have no disposable income whatsoever. And at this point, I can’t justify spending big money on clothes that will “last forever because they’re well made,” because in two months, they won’t be the right size for me anymore.*

Yes, this is me whining (hi, it’s my blog), but also, I’m just saying I feel for all of the other ladies out there who don’t want to wear one style of clothing.


The world of straight sizes: not all it’s cracked up to be.


P.S. If you have suggestions of stores that have decently made clothing at affordable prices, hit me up. Please keep in mind that “in da club” styles don’t suit me, because I am not cool. Thx.

*Yes, I also get that in the context of my life right now, this is a good problem to have. That doesn’t make it less frustrating.